Saturday, August 9, 2003

Love me.

Seems I,
Don't know,
Know why,
You are,
So close,
So far...

Hold me,
Warmly,
Tell me,
You see,
Everything,
That I can be...

And I,
Don't know,
Know why,
Can't I,
At night,
Not cry...

Kiss me,
Gently,
Oh please,
Love me,
And hold on,
To possiblity...

Brought down,
No love,
Can't fly,
Not now,
Must be,
Perfected,
Or be,
Rejected...

Whisper,
Lovingly,
Sweetly,
Tenderly,
Softly,
About the future,
And what it holds for me...

Tell me,
Why I,
Can't find,
Answers,
Somwhere,
I am,
Nowhere,
Why...?

Save me,
From me,
Why can't,
You see,
No one can, just let me be...

When you,
Look in,
My eyes,
Surprised?
Caught in,
My plans,
For my,
Demise...

All these,
Uncried,
Held back,
Inside,
Always there,
To hide behind...

Why am,
Am I,
Alive,
Tell me,
The point,
Survive,
Then die,
That's life,
A lie...

Lost in,
No sense,
Caved in,
So tense,
No relief,
From this crushing suspense...

Save me,
Keep me,
Hold me,
This is,
My plea,
Won't you,
Love me?...

Dark tears,
My fears,
Shattered mirrors,
Sharp glass,
Broken reflections,
You'd better run fast...

Red blood,
Runs down,
My arm,
What fun,
It drips,
Slowly,
From my,
Slit wrist...

Red water,
Full sink,
Their daughter,
They think...

Down the,
Dark drain,
Goodbye,
Mistakes,
They don't,
Know me,
They don't,
Own me...

Not there,
Everywhere,
Uphill,
Hard climb,
Lost in the moments, and rushed by time...

Hiding,
Wishing,
You would,
Find me,
And then,
Save me,
From them...

Take me,
Home and,
Hold me,
So cold,
Could you,
Possibly,
Care about,
Just me...

Love me,
No way,
Couldn't be,
Run away,
So lost, running everywhere, in search of a dream...

These scars,
Are here,
Will you,
Stay near,
Look past,
This mask,
Love me,
For who I am...

I am,
A girl,
A teen,
In my,
Own world,
Killed by,
My dream,
But I,
Am lost,
Seeking,
The cross,
And so it all ends happily...

Sunday, August 3, 2003

Today.

Hey God, where are You today?
Just wanted to ask why You seem so far away,
Everything suddenly stopped being okay,
So God, I need to know where You are today.

Because I've fallen again,
Fallen to my knees,
And I've hurt my friends,
Again, God, I need you here with me.

I need to feel Your warm embrace,
I need You to wipe these tears away,
And restore that lost smile to my face,
Dear God, I need You more than anything today.

I'm sorry God,
I've ignored You for too long,
But I feel so unloved,
Please, come back and prove me wrong.

Jesus, my Savior, I'm sorry I hurt You,
After all You did for me,
Please, come and make me new,
Come now, please, and set me free.

Hey God, where are You today?
I'm so sorry for pushing You away,
I know You'll make everything okay,
God, please, save my soul today.