What you don't see. (written by Sarah and myself)

Can you see me?
It's unlikely
I'm not real sightly
I'm almost unreal
Yeah, you see the smiles
For miles and miles
I'm hiding my trials
Away from you
Look close you'll see this
Most people miss
I'm needing a bliss
To find my truth
I'm trapped in a noose of death
I fight for only one more breath
Insults are a spiritual meth
To the inside me...

Your true friends know you
More than you do
Your hidden to yourself
But not everyone else
We can all see
What you were meant to be
We would fight this fight
Because we know
What you're going through isn't right
You can't take another blow
We know you're strong
But you won't last long
Because you can only take so much
When you continue to hide from love's touch...

What is love's touch?
I don't get it much
It's hard to believe such
A wonderful thing
It's getting hard to hide
No one to confide
You're all against me
What's the purpose
I am worthless
I can't find the surface
Of my own dreams...

Don't try to hide
What you feel inside
You're strength is drained
As you rebuild your wall
You're wrapped in your own chains
You're not the only one who falls
You're not worthless
God has a purpose
None of us is perfect
But we can only reject ourselves...

But why do you care?
I'm getting more share
Of all the unfair
That's dealt in the world
I do all the right stuff
It's still not enough
It's stormy and rough
And I'm all alone...

This is what you call alone?
I'm sorry, excuse my tone
But exactly what does that make me?
So I don't matter?
Heh, I see
I'm not enough either
Is that how it is?
I've promised to be there
Have I failed you yet?...

You are there
And aware
I'm glad you care
But it's like this
He knows that I
Would rather die
And you keep me alive
So he keeps my away
He knows he's winning
Because he's grinning
My hope is thinning
You and God: my last chance...

To him it's a game
To put you to shame
But what he doesn't see
Is the card up your sleeve
Did you forget too?
We all love you!
Turn around
And see all you have
Just reach out and grab
A hold of what you've got
Don't let him tell you
That you are what you're not...

Maybe you're right
I have lost sight
I let down the fight
For the hold on my dreams...

Liquid insanity.

Pale innocence,
No confidence,
A weak little girl who's lost all sense.

Knowing -- becoming,
Twisting -- numbing,
Away from home she's desparately running.

Sour tears shedding,
Weak spirit melting,
Black light shadows darkly reflecting.

Fire breathing,
Anguish screaming,
Her broken glass heart is delicately bleeding.

Crimson dripping,
Thoughts tripping,
Far away from reality slipping.

Out of her mind,
Falling behind,
Sprinting forward -- stuck in rewind.

Hardened fears,
Shattered mirrors,
Weakening -- drowning in her uncried tears.

Warped vanity.
Spitting profanity.
She's dying -- consumed by her liquid insanity.

Mourning dew.

Questions spinning
Just beginning
Lights dimming
Inside my mind
Trapped inside
Will I die?
Answers evading
Feelings masquerading
All my patience slowly fading...

Emotions crashing
Desires thrashing
Dreams dancing
Inside my mind
Trapped inside
Will I die?
Full of longing
Destiny calling
Into your arms eternally falling...

And I wait for you
As I always do
Waiting, praying
For this all to come true
Patiently
I'll dream of you
As these tears collect like mourning dew...

Time to let me go.

...Mommy, I'm sorry
I didn't mean to hurt you
But you've gotta start seeing things
From my point-of-view...

...I can't do it anymore
I feel so godamn fake
Innocence crumbles to the floor
'Cause it's more than I can take...

...Mommy, I'm sorry
That I caused you pain
But it's over now
I'm not coming back again...

...I have to get out of here
I can barely breathe
I have to face my fears
It's time for me to leave...

...Mommy, I'm sorry
I know you can't understand
But it'll make sense someday
I'll explain it as best I can...

...You knew it had to happen
I've told you over and over again
With every begining comes an end
And whatever ends must again begin...

...I'm tired of my bitter weeping
I have to go to be free
I need to find my meaning
I've gone in search of me...

...Mommy, I'm sorry
But you have to let me go
It's too late now
There's no point in saying no...

...You'll know where I am
I'll be back for you someday
I know you understand
Everything will be okay...

...I can't take all this pressure
I'm jsut trying to survive
I can't take another lecture
I must die to stay alive...

...Now don't you cry
Or do something you'll regret
I promise you I'm fine
And I won't be hard to forget...

Perfect.

A perfect girl
You want to be her
In her perfect world
Where you think you've seen her
You want to know her
You wish to show her
Your pathetic life
And have her sympathize
But you don't see the knife
Held behind her eyes...

You watch her laugh
You see her smile
To you it seems
Her life's worthwhile
And as everyone else
You just can't see
She hates herself
Her state-of-being...

She looks in the mirror
At her disguise
She screams in terror
When she doesn't recognize
Herself anymore
Glass shatters on the floor
Cuts into her skin
And buries itself deep within...

She knows she's ugly
From the inside out
Don't tell her otherwise
Your motives she'll doubt
Don't try to be kind
Or whisper in her ear
She's gone completely blind
And she can no longer hear...

The glass flows through her veins
All the more delicate
She's going insane
She doesn't think she can handle it
But everyone else
Thinks she's perfect
So she can't ask for help
And she stays in torment
While behind her mask
She watches her life pass...

You love her
Tell her this
It helps her
Though she denies it
And when she thinks she can't go on
Let her fall into your arms
Hold this perfect thing you love
Protect her heart from anymore harm...

Longing.

Possibility
Is not reality
Living in fantasy
May cause a fatality
Insanity
Brought by unclarity...

Unreal situations
Swirling emotions
Degrading frustrations
Longing for motion
Frightening confrontations
Caught up in the notion
Fear of elimination
Drowning in this ocean...

Destiny
A mystery
How does this all relate to me?
Eternity
Of uncertainty
Until we act we'll never know what will be...

I love you
I hate this
Could you love me too?
I can't take this
Tell me now
Before I break
Tell me how
To end this heart-ache...