Find me.

Maybe there was a flame in me
But all fires burn out eventually
Have you ever thought that maybe I'm not hiding
It's just that you've never bothered to come and find me

Maybe there were some feelings in me
But every tear runs dry eventually
I promise you I haven't been hiding
You just haven't bothered to come and find me

Maybe there were some words in me
But all patience fades eventually
I'm sorry if I appeared to be hiding
But you just never bothered to come and find me

I'm right here
But no one sees me
I'm right here
You just don't see me
If I wasn't clear
I'm really sorry
But I'm right here
So come and find me

Who am I?

I don't need to explain myself
You don't really care anyway
Just tryin' to feel better about yourself
I'm gonna do what I wanna do anyway

You only care about the me
The me that you think I can be
You've only worried about how you feel
You don't even know me

And I need to be who I am
But no one understands
That I've gotta be me
I've gotta learn to believe
In the things I can't see
In future's possibilities
And you may not understand
But I am who I am

Why should I bother coming out
When no one wants to see me
Just tryin' to feel better about yourself
You can't even tell that I'm hiding

I won't change for you
I will always hate me
Don't try to recreate me
I won't change for you

Addict.

I'm addicted to me lie
And it's sweet serenity
It's not at all my life
But it might as well be

I'm addicted to my pain
And I find it comforting
Breaking you is not my aim
But it might as well be

'Cause I can't let it go, gotta hold on
I'm gonna hold on till it bleeds
As I lie here helplessly, cry out desperately
'Cause I feel the need
I need to feel it bleed
So I can't let it go
And I'm gonna hold on till it bleeds

But as it slips away, I hear myself scream
These tears bring me to my knees
But I'm not letting go, not giving up
No, I'm holding on, I'm holding, till it bleeds

I'm addicted to my strife
It is what defines me
I'm not a slave to this knife
But I might as well be

And a smile crawls across my face
As I feel me slowly fade away
A twisted smile finds my face
As I slip into yesterday

Drowning starfish.

A starfish washed up here on shore
I'm suffocating, so stiff and dry
Clinging to my rock here on shore
I'm craving moisture, I need to cry

Take this heart of mine
Drown it in your blue
Wash my towards the sunset
Cleanse me, make me new

A starfish washed up here on shore
I'm waiting for high tide
But I'm too far out here on shore
And it never comes, so I'm running dry

Drown me, consume me
Oh how I need to feel you
Drown me, consume me
Wash me now, into your blue

A starfish washed up here on shore
Waves of grace, come take me now
But they can't reach me here on shore
Please throw me back to sea now

Fifteen.

Fifteen and searching
For something you've never known
Lookin' for a little meaning
You feel abandoned and alone

You toss and you turn
As you look to the sky
You know someday you'll learn
Why you fell for that guy

Fifteen and running
So far away from home
Lookin' for a little meaning
You're so sick of being alone

You just can't sleep
No matter how hard you try
You can't stop thinkin'
About that stupid guy

Fifteen and hiding
Behind those tears you never show
Lookin' for a little meaning
You hide, you need to be alone

You roll over again
As you close your eyes
And who'll ever know
Why you love that guy

And even though he's gone
He won't leave you alone
So you write yourself a song
About the love you've never known
You fell for him hard
And you broke your own heart
You saw some light in him
But you've been left in the dark

Turn away.

Hands shaking
Hearts breaking
Thoughts won't slow down
Fall helpless to the ground
Kindred souls
Hearts entwined
Fear takes its tole
Awaiting a sign
Hate the situation
Love you more than anything
Mind warped in frustration
Want to be your everything
God, fate sucks
Don't even know you
Just my luck
Too afraid to show you
All of these feelings
I'm unsure of myself
Stare at the ceiling
Grap the knife off the shelf
Hearts and minds
Disagree
You are blind
I can't believe
In what I know to be true
In what is too good to be
So I must leave you
As you turn away from me...

Seduced.

A delicate life
Broken inside
A slave to her world
You hear her cry:
"I dreamed of you
And woke up crying
Oh sweet illusions
I dreamed you loved me!"...

She's so confused
She fears it's a lie
What's there to lose?
The sparkle in your eyes
She's afraid of the pain
She'll bring upon you
And she cannot contain
Her soul's decieving truths...

Shred the lives
Of those who love
The plans they contrive
Are just not enough
For love on its own
Is unable to stand
Hate roughly corrodes
With velvet coated in sand...

A slave to her world
Broken inside
A delicate life
You hear her cry:
"Hold me, kiss me!"
But you turn to leave
"Won't you miss me?
Was this all just a dream?"...

Twisted fears
Warped by fate
And crystal tears
Will recreate
This clear shield
These diamond walls
And to her knees
She bitterly falls...

Her haunting elegance
Brings strife to all
Her mysterious radiance
Will cause you to fall
For she is a disease
You've proven this to her
Ignore her desparate pleas
Or be killed by her...