When you cause more tension than relief— that is when I will let you go.
Wednesday, October 10, 2018
Friday, October 5, 2018
Friday, May 11, 2018
I unwrapped myself for you.
Trembling fingers
Running over the cracks.
You took them in
With gentle eyes
And I thought you'd loved me anyway.
But you just thought I could be fixed.
And where you saw it would
Hurt the most
You put needles.
Searing hot into my soul
That I had opened for you
That I told you needed water
And tenderness.
But you didn't listen.
Your needles hit like poison.
So I began to wrap myself again.
And you never even noticed.
Those who are closest to us
Can hurt us the most deeply
Can shatter us.
Tuesday, April 10, 2018
Sometimes I'm afraid
That your well isn't deep enough for me.
Other times that feels utterly ridiculous.
I suppose this is real life
With real ups and downs.
I just can't ever imagine telling you
That I couldn't be there for you.
I make energy for the people I love.
I defy the laws of physics.
I wonder if you'll ever be impressed.
Sunday, April 8, 2018
Monday, April 2, 2018
Sunday, April 1, 2018
Your eyes, when you're serious.
Your eyes, when you're sure.
Your eyes, when you've made me laugh.
Your eyes, when you're delighted by something I've said.
The rise and fall,
The valleys and crests,
Soft waves— soothing.
I didn't know love like this existed
before I met you.
I've never felt so jubilantly free,
and yet so surely safe.
My life has changed since I met you.
And I feel so... relieved.
I feel like I was caught in a current,
Or like I was falling,
Or like I'd been drowning,
And you saw me,
And very purposefully,
You caught me.
Monday, February 26, 2018
Thursday, February 22, 2018
Thursday, January 25, 2018
Tuesday, January 23, 2018
Thursday, January 18, 2018
Friday, January 12, 2018
Thursday, January 11, 2018
You can't level a candle while it is not burning. You have to monitor the flame, make sure the wax doesn't rise too high. Don't give it more than it can handle at once. Be patient. As long as the flame endures, there is hope — certainty, that the result will be achieved.
I think of you now.
Every time I blow out a candle.
How can you not understand
how much I change
every single moment you are near me.
I existed before you.
I will exist after you.
But those two people
would not recognize each other in a mirror.
I am still learning who I am with you.
So are you, I suppose.
I know that I love you.
I know that the course of my life
ends up somewhere better
for having loved you.
Hold me, my love.
Don't let go.
Until you want to.
Monday, January 1, 2018
You are my favorite flower.
I'm not sure how I found you.
I'm not used to having to care for such a beautiful and soft and tender flame.
(As we've heard, I used to live in the desert.)
I have hurt you, and it has startled me.
Your pain feels like my pain, and it's been disorienting.
I'm sorry I'm not getting it.
But I swear your patience is worth it.
This year I'm going to show you.
This year we're going to grow.
You're going to believe me.
You're going to trust me.