I didn't know
That when the trust between us
Cracked
That it would spread
Across my whole heart

I didn't know
That I was losing so much more
Than you
I didn't know
That I would lose everyone

Doubts like mold
Growing in damp darkness
In the sweat of holding myself together
Spreading across my tender sanity into dark forgotten corners

I didn't know
That I could lose her, too