I couldn't say everything to you.
The words felt too heavy.
It feels like a piece of my soul has left me.
Apparently I threw it away.
You can't tell me I didn't fuck everything up.
Your eyes and your hands feel the same
as the night I left you—
empty.
I can feel that you're trying.
I can feel that you're staying.
But I don't know how to trust that this
isn't just how things are now.
It feels like all of the poems you've written about me aren't true anymore.
I want to tell you that I feel for you
what you feel for her.
But I'm afraid you'll find the inaccuracy insulting.
I want to tell you that I've found
a soulmate in you.
But the words are too heavy.
And I'm afraid they'll push me further down
away from you.
I've never in my life been so afraid to lose something.

Your voice hits me
like a warm summer breeze.
I feel your fingers
running through my hair.
And tiny spark fly
down my spine.

Your voice envelops me
like a hot bath.
My head is swimming
through the softness of your words.
Time will bend
and stand still
as I make your phrases last forever.

Your voice dances
in my ears like candlelight
in this dark room.
My thoughts are wax
against your flame.

The world spins
a little faster
as I try to reach
through the days until
your lips
are touching mine.

The shape of my life has changed
Since you entered
And I scrambled to make space

For something I knew I needed
For something that felt familiar
For something I'd known
Many lifetimes ago
For something I'd never felt before

I didn’t need to fit
Into you
Or I already did

We didn't have to make ourselves smaller
We expanded