Thursday, July 30, 2020

Love is mutual delusion.
When I asked if you meant it,
I meant are you committed
—to delude yourself with me
—to this version of the universe
—to lie to ourselves over and over
—to maintain this reality.

I'll never really know
if you lied or simply
misunderstood...
but my freedom is in knowing
that is doesn't matter.

Because I control my reality
and I choose the version
where you betrayed me.
And that is the best revenge I'll ever get.

Saturday, July 11, 2020

What it was to please you
the sparkling heat in my chest
—the light that your smile lit in me...

The feeling of being pleasing...
the holy water of your pleasure
cleansed me of all sins...

Only when I please you.