Trophy.

So now I know how you feel
When you say you're disappointed in yourself
It's hurting to breathe
Because every part of me
Is denying that I am indeed alive

You watch as I smile
Not knowing it's all for you
I act for the prize again
My trophy shines and I'm hoping
You'll see that I'm worthy of your love
But you don't even notice when I fall

Screams fall upon deaf ears
And darkness covers sight like fog
Yet again I find
Nothing will ever be real

It's hurting to smile now
Because every part of me
Is denying that I am indeed content
And it's hurting to think
Because futile dreams
Are holding back thoughts of reality